whenever I get happiness
there is an underlying sadness
that I couldn’t shake away
I smile but storms always find its way
you think that I am okay
while I have lost my good days
you need to look deeper
to know the difference
to understand why I suffer
but I promise you, I won’t surrender
although inside my head gets darker
and my shadow gets bigger
if I could just transfer
this pain to papers
to make myself lighter
but, sometimes reality turns out bitter
I just want to feel and get better
by telling myself no pain is forever
Notes From Feelings 