I open my eyes with a heavy sighand again, I failed to empty my mindI go to the rooftop to see the sunshinetry to clarify what is inside my chestfor a moment, I just want to think lessbut the sky is full of grey cloudsthere is no slightest blue at sightwhile my heart is gettingContinue reading “Perpetual Pitch-Black Circle”
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she was fine
every day she looks out the windowthinking how to get through tomorrowwhen she has lingering sorrowcombine with the clouds that followwherever the places she goes she used to like the rainnow she sees it through the windowpanewhen it is pouring, the drops become painmemories are the things that remainand she drowns herself again for her,Continue reading “she was fine”
Heartbreak Company
standing alone on the balconythe air that I breathe feels heavyor maybe it is the worry inside meor the burden that I always carrywhat is in my head killing me slowlyfrom the distance, this city looks prettybut, everything seems dull to me above me, there is a wide black seathe dark makes the light difficultContinue reading “Heartbreak Company”
Hopeful
from the hospital windowI see the moonlight’s shadowwhile my mind thinks about tomorrowmy heart busy dealing with sorrowand deep down I feel very sorryto whom I love and care around mebecause they have to helplessly seethe blazing pain that I quietly carry from inside my small room ceilingI hear the sound of the rain pouringitContinue reading “Hopeful”
The Melancholia Weights Within Me
it has been days when I stayed in bedbecause somehow I keep feeling sadthose sadness has made my eyes redand I feel there is a storm in my headI could not explain it to mom and dadmom offers me go to therapy insteadbut I have no energy to face what is inside I am tiredContinue reading “The Melancholia Weights Within Me”
A Habit
every morning when I wake upthe sun already up in the centre of the skybut it seems the bed glued me to stayI keep thinking will I be okay todaywill this day be easy to get throughor it will be another day with the blues through a screen, I can see everyonebeing happy made meContinue reading “A Habit”
Reinforcing
I know that you are scaredof course, you are scaredto the thing that you do not knowto the blur about tomorrowa familiar feeling that you can not showand I am not asking you not toor saying that you just need to get throughbecause that is more than just sayinga cliche ‘I believe in you’ thingsometimesContinue reading “Reinforcing”
her
as i sit down on the floorwith a black dog blocking the doorit’s like i’m looking in a mirrori thought i am the authorbut, she also is the actorshe has played a partthere’s nothing i can do to restartslowly, i lost my heartbecause she makes me fightwhatever plightto keep the light she sees me breathinggiveContinue reading “her”
A Battle
there are too many things to fighther monogamous relationship with the lightextinguished by tired every nightshe’s living with the fear side by sideno place to hidedon’t know how to feel reliefalthough she knows it never gets easierbut, she tries to believeshe will get tougherstay calm in uncomfortableher heart shatteredwhen she wrote a letterthey said itContinue reading “A Battle”
Notes From Feelings 